Another translation I have made from the letters of Igumen Nikon (Vorobyov).
The soul can’t but be in pain until it feels that it has received forgiveness for the multitude of sins committed. As for repentance, we are only able to repent poorly. If someone is repenting of their sins while at the same time judging others or being vain, etc., can that be repentance? This means that one hand is building while the other hand is tearing down. This is why the soul is suffering.
February, 14, 1962